Recently might not be the best term either considering I've had this on and off since I was 17 but it's currently "on" so it is current in that sense. Since February I have been having chest pain, it's a fairly normal occurrence for me so I've never been particularly concerned, but I decided to try seeing a doctor again since I gave up on them previously (2006 and 2008). These 'episodes' as I like to call them vary in length and can be anywhere from 30 seconds to 90 minutes. The pain is fairly intense and has on occasion left me feeling rather crippled. In my previous times seeing doctors they have run batteries of tests with no solid results. I to this day have no solid explanation for what happens to me. The main problem being that none of them have been able to induce or record an episode - which means they have no idea what's happening when I'm actually having one, all they can see is how my body is acting normally.
The latest doctor did an EKG, chest ex-ray, chest echo, and finally (last Tuesday) a stress test. Still nothing. In the midst of the disappointment of having no results I am at least happy that they are so far unable to detect any serious defects with my heart or lungs. I've heard many opinions: angina, anxiety, arrhythmia, pleurisy, etc. And I'm just about to my giving up on the doctors point once again. Unfortunately they seem to have been increasing in intensity, frequency, and length so I'm not sure if giving up and living with it is currently a proper option.
That's the gist of it.
With that being said I know that God is faithful, and that He works all things for the good of those who love Him, I know that I can trust Him above all things, and I know that whatever happens is for the good of His kingdom. I serve the great, mighty, all-powerful God and He loves little old me, faults and all. That is what is truly amazing.
My favorite verse at the moment, which I have nearly memorized just from my shear desire to share it with the world is:
"I am God, and there is no other; I am God and there is none like me, declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, 'My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all my purpose.'" Isaiah 46:9-10
How can anyone question the sovereignty of God after reading those words? I most certainly cannot.
The adorable twins I nanny for turned 1 last Thursday! Oh, and I learned the greatest lesson in child photography - JUST KEEP CLICKING!
